LONGING FOR MY FATHER
BY: LENNY ANTONSSON
JUNE 7, 2001
Father, you are my very life;
You are the light of my life,
the love of my life, the mercy of my life,
the kindness of my life, the joy of my life,
the peace of my life.
You are my real Father.
I need an intimate relationship with you.
I want to see You clearer, to hear You clearer,
to understand you clearer, Father.
There is absolutely nothing without You, Father.
I have been birthed forth by You, Father.
I have come forth out of your very loins, Father.
I desire a closer relationship.
You are the one to initiate all these things, Father,
because I don’t understand spiritual things well enough yet.
There is nothing but You. You are all in all, Father.
Where shall I go, Father? There is no life but You.
You are the bright and morning star;
You are the rose of sharon;
You are the glory of the ages, Father.
It is You that we love with our whole being, Father.
Without You, we die and blow away like dust.
In You, there is fullness of life and majesty and glory and honor.
As the deer pants for the waterbrooks, Father,
so we pant after Your life, Your light, Your love, Your kindness.
Even now, my heart cries out, “Be my complete Father,
with total intimacy. Do not hide yourself in the clouds,
but let me see You clearly, hear You clearly,
understand You clearly, Father.
In You is everything that I desire.
Holy, holy, holy are You, for whom I yearn and long for.”
Every morning, I wake up, and my cry is,
“Where are You, my Father, my love?
Where are You, the one that my heart cries out for.
There is nothing that can satisfy but You.”
And in the evening, I cry again.
“You are the desire and the fullness;
You are the one that I long for.
In You, there is fullness of joy and peace and love.
Your unconditional love soothes my life.”
The one I love is not far from me; yet I cannot touch Him.
I want His power to flow through me, but He is evasive.
At times, I think my heart will break because of the yearning for Him.
I have found no satisfaction in anything else
but my God and my Redeemer,
He that has created me.
Oh, that this would be the day that
He would fully envelope me in His love.
I know that my Redeemer liveth and
that I shall stand with Him on the last day,
but that does not satisfy me now.
“I need you now, my Father and my love.
Now, is the moment that I breathe my breath.
Now is the time when my heart needs to be quickened
by Your love and by the richness that flows forth from You.”
I know that He who has kept me from falling
shall reveal Himself in His fullness to me
and my heart and my spirit will be fully satisfied.
He is the one that will completely illuminate my life.
LONGING FOR MY FATHER [Lenny Antonsson] 6-7-01 ~ POEM 1