DARKNESS HAS BEEN MY FRIEND!
BY: TOM HOLMQUIST
When I do the things I would not do, it is not “I” but rather it is doubt about my “true identity” that will do these things.
Well then, if is not I that do things I would not do, how do I deal with this? O foolish virgins who has bewitched you from obeying the truth of your completeness? There are many that advocate that we need to fix ourselves by being good, getting our ducks in order, taking control of our life, self discipline and the list is endless. In fact, we are ever learning and never able to fix this old man/woman. We have been bewitched! How can you fix a dead man?
The question then becomes what are we trying to fix? Many of Those who bewitch others (use witchcraft) we will find are preachers, well meaning friends, and our TV’s are filled with many popular personalities that tell us how to fix ourselves. I call darkness my friend because, happy is the man that condemns not himself, for the things which God allows. Yes, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil. That is what happens when I do the thing I would not do, I’m walking in the shadow of death, and it is a shadow, because death has been swallowed up in victory, and it has no power over us. It is in that valley of the shadow of death that I learn, nothing can separate me from the love of my Father, also I learn you cannot fix what is not broken, and not to call unclean, what God has cleansed. Yes! God will allow us to walk through the valley. Do you condemn yourself in that valley, O foolish virgin?
We are born of an incorruptible seed; we are virgins… we are complete in that seed of Christ. Paul called the woman in Romans seven an adulterous because she did not acknowledge her first husband as being DEAD, and was trying to justify herself by goodness of the law. When we do that, (justify ourselves) it does NOT change the fact that we are virgins, and that the seed is not corrupt. We have become foolish virgins that have been bewitched, and have lost the oil (anointing) that would bring forth the light in our lives. Paul went on to invite the foolish virgin (woman or soul) in Romans 7:4 to get married, get intimate, with the one who is raised from the dead… that’s you! The real you has been raised from the dead. There is nothing to fix, and this we will learn in the darkness, as we realize it, is not the I, (incorruptible seed) but rather, unbelief, that dwells within us, that the “I” needs to deal with.
Ok, I see it! The I that I am cannot be corrupted; but how do I deal with this unbelief (sin) that I find within myself? First we must realize that we have this treasure, within an earthen vessel, and this vessel has a genetic memory of all the sins of our forefathers. The New Creation Man is “NOT GUILTY” of the unbelief of our fathers. The corruption of this earthen vessel MUST put on incorruption, and that’s where we come in. We will need to walk through all the darkness that we find ourselves in and not waver in the faith and rest of who, in fact, we really are. O death (darkness) where is thy sting. O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death (darkness) is sin (unbelief) and the strength of this darkness is SELF RIGHTEOUSNESS (the Law). As we rest in our true identity (completeness in Christ) this gives us the victory. This trust and rest will not only be victory for us, and keep the anointing in our lives, but it will bring healing to all of our forefathers. Those who rest and come forth in their true identity, in the midst of darkness, will cause all creation to put on incorruption.
This is the day when many want to identify with the Son’s and would like to be called a completed son, but they still want to wear their own clothes. In other words they still want to justify themselves by the works of their own goodness. When Jesus asked the question “why do you call me good, there is none good but God“, he could have added; “Do you see the Father in me… is that why you call me good?” Jesus also said “if you SEE me you SEE the Father.” This can also be true of us, because when we see Him as he is, we are like Him, and then we will put on only the garment of pure linen, and we will no longer desire to wear our own clothes or have any need to justify ourselves… even when we find ourselves in a time of darkness. You have been justified and there is no way that you can improve completeness. Put on the garment of praise and thanksgiving.
One of the favorite quotes of those who resist this word is; “this will give you a license to sin” and “you can go out and do whatever you want to do”. Hello! Just what is it you want to do? You must understand that when you are born of the incorruptible seed of Christ, we do come into a liberty from any and all religious activity, and we have no need to prove anything! Even when we do things we would not do (a trial of our faith) we give thanks as we realize it is not “I”. Paul talked about false brethren (Gal. 4:2) that would come in to spy out our liberty which we have in Christ Jesus… and their reason… they want to bring us back into the same bondage that they are in. Misery likes company.
Psa. 139:11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me. Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light [are] both alike [to thee].
May all those who are of Him – bring forth praise for such a great salvation.
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