THE NEW ORDER
WAITING UPON THE LORD
BY: ANTHONY Den HARTOG
There is only one activity (whether you call it universe, Life, or Presence) and that activity is only good. In other words, it is full of everything that anybody will ever need. And there are absolutely no shortages in that realm. Jesus called it the Kingdom of God, or the realm of government that governs all life, that gives fragrance to the flowers, that gives taste to the food that you eat and at the same time digests it in your stomach to give your body the vitamins, minerals and everything else that you need.
Now, because we have what you call a traditional background, we have seen God in a different light. We have seen God as a separate power that struggles with evil and demands loyalty, or demands that we should not steal or should not commit adultery or do anything wrong to our neighbor–and we have seen this god that we worship in our religious realms or churches as something that rewards you, a conditional god who will really do good for you if you obey what he says. It’s like a father–if the child obeys, then the father will reward the child, but if the child disobeys, he gets the stick. We’ve seen that as God dealing with people.
And of course that is very far from the truth, because God does not deal with people or reward them. God doesn’t give anything to anybody. God just IS, and lets His rain fall on the just and the unjust. Regardless of your human experience, the Presence of God in all Its fullness is right here and now for you to realize. When you realize it, you will have Life. If you don’t, then you will not experience the Life that you are entitled to. And you are not entitled to the Life because you are a Presbyterian, a Pentecostal, a Jew, or a Buddhist. We are not entitled to anything as humans–because God does not deal with humans. He doesn’t provide for, heal or restore that which humanity calls life.
And He has never given us a Bible, a book or any teaching that would indicate that God wants to make our humanity feel a little bit more comfortable or give us some kind of assurance that we won’t have to go to hell when we die. All these things are the figments of the imagination of man whose breath is in his nostrils. In other words, man in his natural or confused state of guilt, frustration, alienation, and fear has not known the truth.
Jesus, who had a revelation of the true God, said, “If you continue in My Word…” The “My Word” is not what the man Jesus said. That’s not the Word. Jesus Himself said, “The doctrine or the words that I speak are Spirit and Life. They have nothing to do with My human opinion of what I think Truth is.”
Truth or the Word of God cannot be heard or evaluated by the mind. The mind has no faculty or way to hear, see, or understand what Truth is. So, then, how can we know the Truth and how can we renew our strength? That’s what we need at this particular moment–to be renewed in our strength. The word “strength” really means “Consciousness” because Consciousness is strength. And the Word of God is the Consciousness and the Substance and the Nature of everyone that lives. But because of our alienation from it, we have acquainted ourselves with the appearance world or the things which we experience–such as lack, disease, cold, heat, war, or famine–and we have formed all sorts of images in that realm.
So, then, what is the secret? The secret is, “They that wait…” To wait is to be still. That is not to wait for the bus. But in a sense you do; you are waiting for the OMNI-bus or the OMNI-Presence to reveal Itself to you and me. God is always a present help in a time of need. It (or He) will never leave you or forsake you.
Jesus said, “I will come unto you” I”, not Jesus. “I” is the very Presence of God. So in the light of this challenge to begin to “wait,” we have to learn to do that–because it is not my mind or opinions that are going to renew my strength. The only thing which will renew our strength is when we begin to hear the Word of God. “He that has an ear let him hear.” It is the Spirit that reveals what the Word of God is.
Books and writings are not wrong, but they cannot renew our strength. Writings have no meaning at all unless we begin to “wait upon the Lord.” We cannot discuss things. There’s a book called “A Course in Miracles” which claims to be the dictates of Jesus through the form of channeling, the author of the book writing down what she heard Jesus speak. The book itself is wonderful to read, a good book, but it is not a Spiritual book. It is a mental book. Anything at all that can come through the mind (when something speaks to you from the outer) is definitely not spiritual, but is of “this world.” Even though it may help you temporarily to find healing, prosperity, comfort, or anything of that nature, it cannot give you the Truth.
It is not a man that speaks to us. If we think a man speaks to us or through us through channeling or through waiting to hear a voice that is not what I’m talking about.
To wait upon the Lord is not to listen for a voice of one existing as a person. The Voice we are waiting on is not the voice of a man or a woman; it’s the Voice of Universal Spirit. So there’s a very subtle comparison between spiritualism (spiritism), and mysticism. Mysticism is not dealing with the mind at all. In Mysticism, the mind is completely neutral, as it were, and becomes receptive to the Voice of God, not the voice of a man, woman, saint, or sage–not even Jesus or Mary or any form of anyone who existed and has passed on and speaks to us. I’m not denying that you can hear these voices speak, but it is never reality, is never mystical Truth that you are hearing.
“A Course in Miracles” speaks of whether Jesus was the only son of Mary and concludes that He had about six brothers and sisters. But it is totally irrelevant whether he had six, ten or no brothers or whether He was born of a virgin or not. It makes no difference at all, because through that realm we cannot hear or perceive the Truth. The apostles Paul, John, and Peter never, ever spoke of the importance of genetic birth, not even the birth of Jesus.
You must refrain, then, from all what we call “voices” or things that may speak to you. Unless you know the nature of error and the nature of Truth, you can get hopelessly lost in that realm. You might even get a total nervous breakdown–even though for a little while you might even experience some form of relief.
Isaiah 40:25 (KJVS) To whom then will ye liken me, or shall I be equal? saith the Holy One. 26 Lift up your eyes on high, and behold who hath created these things, that bringeth out their host by number: he calleth them all by names by the greatness of his might, for that he is strong in power; not one faileth.
Isaiah 40:27 (KJVS) Why sayest thou, O Jacob, and speakest, O Israel, My way is hid from the LORD, and my judgment is passed over from my God? 28 Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. 29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. 30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: 31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 41:1 (KJVS) Keep silence before me, O islands; and let the people renew their strength: let them come near; Verses 25-26 To whom then will ye liken me (that’s God), or shall I be equal (to)? saith the Holy One. Lift up your eyes on high. . .
Now you know what that means, –not looking up in the sky, but looking beyond the physical realms of life and seeing a dimension that lies beyond the scrutiny (or evaluation) of the mind. So we are going to see things which are invisible. We’re going to hear things which are inaudible. We’re going to perceive things which are totally alien to the human mind (or human consciousness).
Verses 25-26 To whom then will ye liken me? Lift up your eyes on high, and behold who hath created (all) these things, that bringeth out their host by number. . .
The host of creation is everything from a tree to a flower, a microbe, a whale, stars, constellations–anything at all that exists, what we know today–that is the host of God. It is the host of God that appears as effect because “I” do all these things.
Verse 26 Lift up your eyes on high, and behold who hath created these things, that bringeth out their host by number; he calleth them all by names by the greatness of his might. . .That means that to everything that exists God has given His own Nature. God has never given, for instance, to the tiger the nature to eat the lamb. Nor has He ever given to His offspring called “the Son” the nature to make war with his neighbor–because that is not the Nature of God. And it is not the nature of man. The reason why we are seeing so much trouble in the world is because we have not recognized our Nature. And we have not recognized the Nature of the tiger or the lion.
Daniel recognized the Nature of the lion. When he was thrown into the pit where the hungry lions were, because he realized the Nature of the lion, he was not consumed (or eaten) by them. The Life (or Nature) of the lion is the same Life that was flowing through Daniel. And of course Life (or God) does not eat Itself. There is perfect harmony in the True Universe of God’s creation; in this Universe there exist no blood-sucking mosquitoes. God has given the Nature to the mosquito, but not to suck blood. Likewise, He has given the Nature to the animal, but not to eat flesh and drink blood. And He has not given the nature to man to murder his brother, or even to go to war with him.
If God has not given us this nature, how did it come about? Adam began to believe in the nature of good and evil–that some things have an evil nature while other things have a good nature. Therefore, we have the contrast–we see the lion as having an evil and the lamb as having a good nature. Which one is true? Neither; because God has not given a good nature to one and an evil nature to the other. When He created all things, he saw that everything was good–not good and evil; and He was pleased with what He created. What he SAW was good. And that is the creative process or activity of God in Truth.
Through Adam sin entered. What is sin?–a mistaken nature, or a mistaken belief that something is good and something is evil. And Adam became alienated from the Life of God through the ignorance and blindness that now began to exist in his heart. So the whole avenue of “waiting” is to again restore us back to Eden where we were in the beginning with God, where we were enjoying the Nature and Name of God. And we were enjoying each other because we realized that every one of us was God expressed as individual Being. So Myself is Yourself.
There is only one activity, and it is the activity of God expressed as “I”.
Verse 25 To whom then will ye liken me, or shall I be equal (to)? saith the Holy One.
To nothing–because there is nothing and there is nobody that would match that criteria. Because there is only One–and that is you and I in expression. So there is one “I” here, one Being here, and that Being is what we call the “Body of Christ.” Now we alone are not the Body of Christ; the Body of Christ is the whole of mankind–not humanity, but mankind. Humanity is not the Body of Christ because in the Body of Christ there are no Jews, Greeks, black or white, male or female. So the Body of Christ has no gender.
The Body of Christ is the Presence of God realized in Consciousness. So we begin to realize that the Body of Christ is the fullness of God, the fullness of Life, the fullness of Self that filleth all in all. In other words, the Body of Christ distributes and feeds and clotheth Itself. Once we realize what the Body of Christ is, we can begin to share–but not on a physical level. The sharing is the realization that we have. You do not share as an individual (or as a human) with anybody. You cannot give anything to me, and I cannot give anything to you because it is God that is the giver. If you are instrumental to be used by God and you give to me or I give to you, then it is the activity of God working through us. It has nothing to do with your individual goodness or individual greed or withholding. Human beings will give to one they favor and withhold from someone else.
That is humanity, but we are not dealing with humanity. We are dealing with the common bond of communion in the realization that God IS our supply. Money is not the supply. You cannot organize God. Nor can you organize this ministry. We do deal with the outer world, rendering unto Caesar what is Caesar’s and unto God what is God’s. There has to come a balance to the body of Christ in the communion of what we know as The Light of the World. I don’t like to call it “church,” I see it as the Light of the World activity. In that realm we become aware of God’s Presence. As we, as a Body, begin to wait on the Lord–then not one will fail. Not one can fail because, as it says in Proverbs 4, “My son (or daughter) attend to My Word.”
What is God talking about? The Word of God is what you are born of; you are born of the incorruptible seed of God that lives and abides forever. But just because it is written in the Scripture doesn’t mean you are going to experience it. God abides forever in you and as you; but without you realizing it consciously, you’ll not experience it. So you cut yourself off from what is called the grace of God–because the grace of God is our sufficiency.
What is the Grace of God? “Becoming aware of God’s Presence–that’s the Grace of God”. God giving you something is not the Grace of God because God never gives anybody anything. So stop asking God to heal you or give you something–because He won’t He is not withholding anything, all things are already yours. Stop asking God to speak to you–because He does all the time, we must be receptive to His Voice. It is only because we are not hearing, –because we are so oriented to the sensual world, the activities of the outer world (the appearance realm)–so that we have become so noisy that we cannot hear the Voice of Grace that comes and will say to us:
“Don’t you know, My son (or daughter) that all that I am and all that I have is already yours.” “How can you say that, God? I’m poor; I’m sick; I’m down and out.”
The reason why you experience, poverty, lack, premature aging, sickness, worry and anxiety in life are because you are alienated from the Life of God through your own ignorance. Ignorance, then, is the only reason why the people of God (which is the world) perish. The reason why there is war and famine, why children are dying and why there is trouble on every side is because of ignorance, and nothing else.
It is not because we do bad things or good things. We have plenty of good Christians that are suffering the most horrendous sicknesses, diseases, and problems. So it has nothing to do with your goodness or with your badness. Have you noticed that there are plenty of healthy sinners walking around? They drink and smoke and push dope and still live to be a hundred and five.
What you DO has nothing to do with it, it is really what you KNOW that is going to count. Let’s go on.
Verse 26 Lift up your eyes on high and behold who hath created these things, that bringeth ou their host by numer: he calleth them all by names by the greatness of his might. . .
So then the Presence of God realized is the greatness of his might–just the realization. The greatness of his might is always here and now. But to realize it means that you have heard Him say to you, “You are my beloved child in whom I am well pleased.” Listen to the Voice that comes from within you.
And it says:
Verse 26 He calleth them all by names by the greatness of his might, for that he is strong in power: (and) not one faileth.
Not one. This is now the conundrum: why do we see so much failure, so much lack? You can stick your head in the sand like an ostrich and say, “God must be dealing with me or teaching me something” or “there must be a devil somewhere that is doing all these things.” So you start fighting the devil.
No, don’t fight the devil as not one fails if we walk in obedience to the leading of the Spirit. You do not succeed if you fight the devil. It doesn’t say, “Don’t fight the devil.” There is no devil to fight. If there is any devil to fight, it is your own ignorance–that’s the only devil there is. The only devil is your ignorance of the Name and Nature of God, or your own mind that is entertaining a sense of duality–a sense of guilt, shame, and fear. If you are still feeling guilty for what you did yesterday, you will perish. You will continue to perish until you forgive yourself–because it is only you, not God that is remembering your sin.
“Well, I forgive myself, but you don’t know my husband or my wife; they don’t seem to want to forget my sin.” Don’t worry about them; just forgive them. Say, “Father, forgive them; they don’t know what they are doing either.”
You must come into a place where you begin to wait upon the Lord, not saying, “God, forgive me” because He doesn’t even know what you are talking about. He doesn’t know what you did yesterday. Waiting on the Lord has nothing to do with doing something or not doing something. It has to do with you realizing your own Nature, which is “I”. This “I” which is your Nature has within it all that you will ever have need of for all eternity–in this life and in the life to come.
The quicker you realize this, the quicker you will begin to impersonalize evil. As long as we see evil person, we are harming ourselves–because there is no evil person. In other words, we are putting ourselves under the law of mistaken identity. And that is death (which has nothing to do with God) which can work out in all sorts of forms: disease, lack, having no friends, or losing everything–simply because we have not learned to impersonalize.
There is no evil person, place, or thing because there is no evil in Truth. Evil might exist as an appearance of evil yes, and you might see a drunken man beating up his wife; that is an appearance of evil, but it is not evil. In other words, this appearance has no law; it is not constituted by God. It doesn’t exist in God; therefore, it doesn’t exist at all. But it can exist as ignorance in our consciousness and can hold us bound–because of our judgments.
Have you noticed that during the last war churches were opened and the people were encouraged to pray that their soldiers on the front would be protected from the enemy? But you didn’t see churches opened so that the people could pray for the enemies to be protected from their boys. As if God would protect people from their enemies. But that’s not the truth, for God doesn’t know anything about enemies. God only knows everyone as Himself, whether you are black, white, good, evil, male or female. It makes no difference whether you are Jew, Gentile, Baptist, Buddhist, or Pentecostal–God only sees you as Himself. This is why He said:
Verse 25 To whom then will ye liken me, or (to whom) shall I be equal? saith the Holy One. Here we have what you call a measurement. “I’m not feeling equal to God because I know myself–what I have done in human existence.” I am a sinner, but I will try my utmost best to please God.” That is self-righteousness, because no human being in his alienated state can ever become righteous or holy or do anything in asceticism or any religious practice (whether it is baptism, giving your heart to Jesus, or whatever you do) that can ever please God or any way make you come to God–because God doesn’t know that you’ve been away.
How can you come to God if He doesn’t know that you’ve been away? It is only you who has a sense of being away from God, and the only reason you feel that is because you have a sense of selfhood that is separate and apart from God. In other words, there is “the King and “I.” There is a sense of God and I, but I think I am different from God because I am not doing so good, or I’m guilty, or I’m weak. But that is not true; it only appears to be so.
You want to know why there is so much cruelty, misery, war, and anxiety in the world?–because we have a sense of separation from the Living Presence. It is strange, because in that sense of separation there are some whom we call “sinners” because they go and do whatever they like, knowing that there is someone or something “out there” or “up there” which they are choosing to ignore and go on with their lives, taking their chance even when they know there is a God. There are others who feel they must obey God, or must go to church or pay their tithe or do something else to please God–so that they become religious, thinking they must be born again, give their hearts to Jesus, speak in tongues or prophesy. Then, in their religious mode, they try to convert others to their religious thinking–and that is what you call “evangelism.”
But God doesn’t know anything about evangelism either. God doesn’t know anything about what people do in the name of God because there is nothing that is equal or unequal to God, because there is nothing, there are no opposites to the Light that God IS!. There is no good and evil, God and sinner, or God and devil. There is only God. That’s the truth, and your realization of it causes the activity of the Word of God to bring health and prosperity and well-being and everything else what you have need of in this life to appear.
But it’s a subtle thing. Someone will say, “Well, it is all right for him, but you don’t know my troubles.” I don’t want to know your troubles either beloved, because me giving power to your troubles causes me to experience trouble as well. When people tell me all their troubles over the phone, I usually say, “Uh-huh,” but I don’t listen to any of it. All I hear is the voice within me say, “This is my beloved child in whom I am well pleased.” And that is all I see. I don’t say it to them; I just see that. And after awhile, they sort of calm down, because I see the equality that exists in them as the son or daughter of God. And they quieting down, suddenly you hear a big sigh, and they say, “I feel better; why do I feel better?” “I don’t know; maybe God is speaking to you.”
That is now beginning to wait upon the Lord.
Now: Verse 27 Why sayest thou, O Jacob, and speakest, O Israel, My way is hid from the Lord…
Or “my way is hid from God.” They had their own way and wanted God to bless their way. We used to pray, “Bless this church,” “bless this house,” or “bless this food.” God doesn’t bless the house or the food. He doesn’t do anything, the food is already blessed; so is the house. All our sayings is our way that gives us a sense of lack, because we are trying to get God to do something for us, either to heal us or to provide for us or to give something to us or to bless our children. God doesn’t bless anybody. God hasn’t got any children–in that sense. He has only one Son, or Offspring, and all living form is already blessed with all spiritual blessing in heavenly places (Ephesians 1:3).
So: Verse 27 Why sayest thou, O Jacob, and speakest, O Israel, My way is hid from the Lord.
Of course it is, because He doesn’t know anything about your way or your desires or your feelings.
Verse 27… and my judgment is passed over from my God?
Then God speaks: Verse 28 Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not (He doesn’t faint, does He?) neither is (He) weary?
He never gets weary. Have you ever seen the trees every year? The spring comes and the flowers appear. He is never weary in again and again and again and again resurrecting the Life Principle constantly, over and over again. And He will never weary; that will go on for eternity, because God’s creation is eternal, immortal, invisible, incorporeal, and effervescent. It will never change. He is never weary–an everlasting creative Principle that fills all things that maintains and sustains all things. And He is not aware of anything else but His own Word, His own Will.
And His Will is always good towards you–that you will always have an expected good future, if you like to call it the future. But there is no future; there is only the eternal now appearing as future. Now is the day of salvation; now is the accepted time (2 Corinthians 6:2). He is not weary, and Verse 28... there is no searching of His understanding.
That means that the human mind can never scrutinize or understand or become aware of the workings of Spirit. The human mind is inquisitive and always asking, “Why is this happening (or not happening) to so-and-so?” or “Why so-and-so sick and the other one is is healthy?” “Why did this wonderful Christian die of the bubonic plague, or something?” “Why does this person who has been serving mankind fall off the roof and break his neck?” “Why?”
It has nothing to do with God. It is universal ignorance, not personal ignorance. Ignorance is not personal, it is but a universal belief in two powers. So whatever happens to you, do not blame yourself or anybody else. Don’t try to find the cause. Don’t say, “Why me?” or “Why this or that?”–because there are no why’s or wherefore’s.
Just be sure that you learn to wait upon the Lord. Don’t begin to attribute good or evil (in whatever form it comes) to God. We are always trying to psychologize everything and work out why some people have trouble. Psychologists try to look into people and find out why they have troubles in their lives; they call that “psychology a search for problem in what they think is a mind separate from the Mind of God.”
The reason why that is a failure is because the psychologists think that everybody has a mind of his own. But we don’t. There is only one mind, and that is the universal Mind of Christ, in which there is no good or evil activity, but only God activity coming by revelation. What we call the human mind, the individual mind, is not individual. It is the universal ignorance to think that man’s mind is an independent action.
Somehow there are vibes flowing through this universal ignorance that may attach itself to one person and not to another for some reason or other–I don’t know. And I don’t want to look at it. People ask me, “Where did evil come from?” They think it a mystery how evil came about, but it is not a mystery at all. The Bible states that through the disobedience of one man, ignorance came into the world. The sin that came into the world simply means living in a mistaken identity.
What is the sin or ignorance that came into the world that caused the calamity, the trouble, and the issues that are now in the world which cannot be solved by political means, religious means, or any other means? And it will never be solved.
You know where evil started?–when man began to believe in two powers. Man began to believe in God and devil, good and evil, black and white, male and female, health and sickness, poverty and prosperity. If there is an opposite of something, it isn’t of God. In other words, if health is the opposite of sickness, neither sickness nor health is of God. If there is anything at all that you can have an opposite to, it is not the activity of God. It is all in the realm of good and evil.
So that is what we are going to do now. We are going to progress in our spiritual growth and awareness to a level where we are going to see the fruit of it. I already feel and know this within myself. I am beginning to experience it in my own personal life, but I want you to also experience it. That is coming as a renewal of the three-fold being that you are–spiritual, mental, and physical being–to its full glory, in all its eternal and immortal Nature. It is affluence, prosperity, effervescence; it is Life! Like Jesus said, “Out of your innermost being shall flow rivers of living water.” This He spoke of the Spirit (John 7:38-39).
What is this Spirit? How can I experience this effervescent, eternal Life that Jesus promised?
You get it by waiting on the Lord.
What is waiting on the Lord? And what is the Lord, that I might wait on Him?
The Lord is the Spirit–not Jesus the human, not some trinity or some concept you have of God. No, the Lord is the Spirit, and if we wait upon that, something begins to happen from within ourselves that speaks. It might be an audible voice. It might be an impression, a feeling, or a big sigh. It is something that begins to reveal Itself to you from within you; that is the Spirit.
It has nothing to do with Christian or religious concepts of Spirit. Spirit is God. Spirit is that which reveals Itself to you and says, “All that I have, and all that I am, you are. I am you, and you are Me, and we are One activity. And beside Me, there is no one else.”
This is why Jesus thought it not robbery to be equal with God. What does that mean?–equal with Spirit, equal with “I”, equal with what I am.
What am I? I am that I am. Before Abraham was, I already am. That’s equality. That’s realization. We want that realization as a Body especially–because where two or three are gathered together in My Name (or in My Nature), there “I” will be in the midst of you–because of the equality of the Holy One.
That is the Nature and the Substance of all that are present here. Now you don’t have to worry about anybody else. There are groups all over the earth where people are becoming aware of the equality, of the Oneness, of the Nature, and of the Name of God. That realization of being One with God, will eventually cover the earth as the waters cover the sea (Isaiah 11:9; Habakkuk 2:14).
And peace will be on earth as it is in heaven. “My peace.” What is “My peace.” Peace is I now have realized what I am. Now I can say to you, “My peace ‘I’ give unto you”–because my Father and I are One. That is thinking it not robbery to be equal or in harmony with God. But I, as a man, make myself of no reputation. Otherwise, I would create or fashion a selfhood that is separate and apart from God. And that is blasphemy!
This is why Jesus said, “Why do you call me good? There is only one good, and that is God.” “Wasn’t Jesus in his humanity God?” No!
Tony in his humanity is not God e. Neither is Martha. “I” am God. What then is this “I”? God. Yes, God is the “I” that I am. God is the “I” that you are.
But it doesn’t work for anybody unless he realizes it consciously. The realization means that you have no more guilt for the past, no fear of the future, no more sense of lack or “I want something” or “I need something.” All your desires are simply a sense of separation.
We used to set our goals, write our desires in our little vision books. We wanted a nice Mercedes Benz, a house, or property. For some strange reason, a lot of these things came to pass. But that is not the Spiritual, and eventually these desires and prayers that come from a human sense of separation will bring you to a dead end.
Now we want to wait on the Lord.
Verse 30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fail.
Never mind how young you are, how fit you are, how smart you are or how much education or ability in business that you have, you shall utterly fail–because there is only one activity, and that is God. If you have an activity separate and apart from God, you will fail–no matter how great your entrepreneurial abilities are and how big your business is, or how strong you think you are–you will notice that all these things fail. Everything fails, so we must then cease from man whose breath is in his nostrils. For wherewith is he to be accounted for? (Isaiah 2:22) They are the works of the flesh–even the good works. You sow to your flesh, and eventually you will reap corruption (Galatians 6:8).
Most of the time we don’t really know why we experience things, and there are some things that are hidden. I’ve experienced this, even after so many years of seeking God. There were some things in my body an activity in my subconscious that began to surface. My blood pressure began to rise to a dangerous level. It began to surface, I didn’t even know it was existing there. But it was an activity that I had formed over the years, and it began to appear–because the wages of sin is death. It began to appear in the form of what I experienced. I had to drastically begin to realize that I wasn’t waiting upon the Lord, even though I thought I was.
I did know something about God. There were areas where I was “all the way with LBJ”, but there were also areas of dark spots that began to surface. You may think it crazy, but that was the grace of God appearing that I was experiencing these things. It was not God that was doing it to me, but God exposed it. And for a little while, it appeared as a threatening situation.
Then I repented. I changed the location of my meditation and thought; and my health again began to spring up–because I waited on the Lord. In other words, I began to fast, not from food, but from my previous concepts I had of God and myself. I began to cast down the imaginations and all the high things that were still existing in my subconscious (2 Corinthians 10:5). I wasn’t searching for something or asking God to reveal my ignorance. The ignorance began to appear, and one by one these things were eliminated.
That is really wonderful. Like Jesus, when He was facing the cross–even in His last moment He would say, “If it would be possible, let this cup pass me by” (Matthew 26:39). Because it was a bitter cup. “Let me just continue the way I am. I am a young man, 33 years old.”
But what does God say? Verse 30 Even the youths will faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fail.
That’s what Jesus experienced. “I’m a young man with all the potential; I’m healthy, strong, and vibrant. I even know something about God. I can be a help to Israel.”
“But you can’t be a help to Israel–unless you die.” Do you know that Jesus had to die to become a help to Israel? That’s where Christians got the concept that Jesus died for our sins. No, He didn’t die for your sins; He died AS your sin. The belief that you are a Hebrew is a sin. The belief that you are a Dutchman thinking that you are white or black, in the belief that circumcision or un-circumcision avails something—as all these beliefs are sin. The belief that you are good or that you are evil is a sin.
If you feel that you are good, you might say, “Can this cup pass me by–because I don’t like to be crucified?” If you are evil like the thief on the cross, you might say, “I deserve to die.” But does a good man deserve to die?
Yes, we all must die to our human Identity–good and evil alike. We must all drink the bitter cup. We must die out to our sense of selfhood that needs something. If I say that I need to breathe or I need to have a heart or a brain, then I have a selfhood separate and apart from God because I don’t need all these things. I don’t even need what we call a body. I am not dependent on body. I’m not dependent on anything at all–so that God’s Will, will be done. God’s will is that we do not trust in body or in heart or in lungs or in breathing or in age or in youth–because all that will fail.
If we believe in birth and we are controlled by birthdays and we seek to look in the stars to see what the future holds, we will surely fail and surely die. Not that the death experience is a reality, for when you physically die, you will wake to find that you didn’t die at all. You experienced death because you had a concept of death; you believed that physical death is finality. But there is no physical death either. There is simply no death.
What appears to be physical death is just a process like the trees which don’t die but appear to die when they lose all their leaves. But every year they come back again. And so do we, maybe in a different way; but I will never die. If this form passes away and returns to the dust, I take upon myself another form–until it is no longer necessary to do that–until I become universal Omnipresent Consciousness. Then my equality and my realization of the “I AM that I AM” becomes a ministry of Melchizedek–without father, without mother, without beginning, without ending. In this Consciousness I have no need for a body. God has no need for a body; God is invisible, and I am invisible. “But Tony, I can see you.” “No, you can’t.”
What did Jesus say to Peter? “Who do men say that ‘I’ am?” He didn’t say, “Who do men say that I, Jesus, am?” Men had the wrong concept. They said, “Some say that you are John the Baptist reincarnated from the dead, and some say you are Elias or one of the other prophets reincarnated from the dead” (Matthew 16: 13-15) So they believed in reincarnation. Actually, so did Jesus. When the Jews asked Him if it was true that before all things are fulfilled Elias must come, Jesus said that he already did come in the form of John the Baptist. He was reincarnated in John the Baptist. (Matthew 17:10-13) “But I am not reincarnated,” Jesus said. “I am before Abraham was” (John 8:58)–indicating that He was now in the realm of the “I AM” and had no need of body.
But Jesus was seen in what appeared to be body, at least to Thomas who could not believe that Jesus was resurrected. But what was resurrected? It wasn’t a body. “I” was resurrected because “I” am the Resurrection and “I” am the Life. You see, there’s no Tony that’s resurrected. It was “I” that was resurrected in me again. And I began to experience the health and the renewing of the atoms of my body, or of what we call our body. It is not that the molecular structure of my body becomes eternal or immortal. No, it doesn’t; for then we put immortality in a body, and a body is not immortal. At least the concept we have of body is not immortal.
Immortality is the realization of “I”.
Immortality and Life is revealed in the Gospel. And that’s what I’m beginning to hear more than ever. Like the blast of a sounding trumpet, God is speaking to me; I can hear it, not on a psychic level, but on a mystical level. Otherwise, you get involved with what you call spirits. There are no spirits in God. God IS Spirit, and I am that One. I am that One that only speaks to my people.
Verse 30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fail: But they that wait upon the Lord. . . You know then that the Lord is that Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is realized in our waiting in silence, there is emancipation from all temporal power, from all things that appear as evil. (2 Corinthians 3:17)
That is waiting upon the Lord. When ten thousand shall fall by your right hand, no evil shall come nigh thy dwelling place (Psalm 91:7). When things begin to appear in this world, whatever is happening in this world, don’t be alarmed because you know that thy dwelling place is the Father’s house where no evil can come nigh unto. That is the mansion of God, My Father’s house that the prodigal son returned to. In my Father’s house are many mansions, or abodes. An abode is a state of awareness where you become aware of the Spiritual Nature of God, man and the universe. And where that is realized in Consciousness, there is then emancipation from bondage–liberation from disease, from calamity, from famine, from earthquakes, from everything that appears to exist in this planet.
So don’t look at the calamities. Don’t watch the news and look at this is happening and that is happening–because you know what will happen to you? You’ll turn into a pillar of salt–like Lot‘s wife who looked back. Do you know why the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah came about?–because of the psychic vibrations that were existing as good and evil to such a measure that it caused that whole thing to explode.
Have you ever heard of poltergeists that make houses shake and things fly around? They are psychic vibrations, distortions existing in what we call the cosmos. They produce earthquakes, famines, calamities, and also these psychic things like flying saucers and the extraterrestrial experiences (people being taken into flying saucers). All these things appear in the cosmic world. It’s not just something that people dream up; they do experience these things. But they are not experiencing it in God. That is a holographic universe that scientifically exists as the cosmos around the earth. It is a distortion and is not the realm to be seeking. If you seek that realm, you’ll begin to experience confusion; and you will never be able to understand the message of righteousness, or the message of the Father that is bringing us revelation.
Seek only those things which are coming from the I AM–not from anything else.
Verse 31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles…
This is all speaking spiritually and symbolically about an eagle. I was an eagle, and I lost my feathers. Eagles lose their feathers; they are old and decrepit and look as if they are about to keel over. And then they get into a state of meditation and they begin to hear something again from within themselves–whatever the eagle hears–and suddenly all their feathers start to grow again. They get whole new feathers and wings, and they begin to fly again in heavenly places far above all principality and power and all the rulers of the darkness of this world.
You know it happens over and over again. Somewhere along the line–I don’t know when–I just got a new set of feathers, and I feel OK now. But in due course, I will shed these feathers again and will receive new ones, because all things always become new. Like the trees–they take on new foliage every spring. They don’t try to hold on to the old, do they?
Have you ever seen a tree trying to hold on to its leaves? No. What happens? They let their old leaves fall off. They don’t try to tie them on with strings or paint them or put a little bit of “lippy” on. You just let go of the old. Unless you let go of the old, you will not renew your strength. You will get older and more decrepit and more senile, more desperate and more confused–until you make up your mind: What do I want? Do I want to preserve this life, or do I say, “I’m letting go of this life”? For when you let go of it, you are not letting go of Life; you are letting go of this concept of what you think your life is. That is all that you are doing.
When you let go of what you think is Life, you become like the eagles; you let go of your old feathers, and you are renewed in strength, renewed in Consciousness, renewed in mind and in body. All the molecules, everything in my body is being renewed. It is like a fountain that is just working. And I want you to experience it. Nobody likes to experience decrepitude, old age, misery, and sickness. No. You can be renewed in whatever situation you find yourself–if you learn to wait upon the Lord.
For then you Verse 31 . . . shall run, and not be weary; (and then you) shall walk, and not faint.
Now I’m going to close with one Scripture: Isaiah 41:1 Keep silence before me. . .
Don’t speak; don’t talk. Just listen–because it is by listening that you renew your strength. It is by meditation that you renew your strength, not by studying, talking, singing, shouting, dancing clapping, not by all these things. They are nice; we can have a good time, but that doesn’t do anything for you.
The only way that you renew your strength is by:
Verse 1 Keep silence before me, O islands, and let the people renew their strength.
It is all in the Old Testament, if you understand it.
Verse 1 Keep silence before me, O islands, and let the people renew their strength: let them come near. . .
Let them come nigh. We have to come closer and closer. I don’t like to say “when we make contact” but rather when we become aware of this Principle, this Presence of “I AM”–which is your Nature and Name. You are the “I”. The “I” is not something different; you are the “I” in your true Nature. But you have taken upon yourself an “I am sick” or “I am poor” or “I am old” or “I am worried” or “I am so lonely.” And because you have that, you are always looking for someone to go to and visit; you are looking for something to satisfy you. Look, you are on the wrong tree. You are eating of the tree of knowledge or the tree of satisfaction of desire.
I know it’s a hard word, but it’s the only way. If you want to experience Life, that is the way to do it. They that wait upon the Spiritual Nature of God, man and the universe and become aware of Its Presence shall renew their strength and mount up like wings of an eagle. And they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint. Psalm 89:15 (KJV) blessed is the people that know the joyful sound: they shall walk, O Lord, in the light of thy countenance. May the Lord Jesus Christ give you insight into this mystery given to those who are willing to follow Jesus into the regeneration of Life!
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