WHO AM I?
MAY 7, 2016
The Glory Road Blog, A Kingdom Highway
Were you ever in a group where you thought uneasily,
Here’s a personal example: When my first marriage was unraveling with no way to cope and no clue what to do, I was at a Wednesday night meeting, standing at the back of the auditorium so I could hear what was said, but be close enough to check on my young daughter who was very upset about something that evening.
The elder who was leading the service was deep into Psychological pondering (Think Lucy with her sign,
I was dying inside from deep emotional wounds and the sure knowledge that there was no help for me, but because of my upbringing, and or my pride, not sure which, there was no way I could go down front and expose myself to ridicule or censure or conclusions about my lack of spirituality. I stood back behind the glass separating the children from the congregation, tears streaming down my face, and like a penniless child with her face pressed up against the window of a candy store, I agonized about my situation.
Christians in general have a tendency to hide their true feelings and/or their real selves from their fellows, assuming they even know what those are, for fear of censure, judgment, and being thought unworthy. It has struck me on occasion over the years that most of us wear masks in public, whether it be church or secular groups, because
What brought this to mind was a group setting I was in last week, in which the woman sitting next to me, confided, that now that her husband has passed,
The question she asked is normal for young people and all of us probably pondered the answer early in life, but this woman is a bit older than I am, and the thought that she had gotten to this age without knowing herself was and is startling.
In his book on child rearing, Dr. Spock said something to the effect, that if you are happy with the way you were reared, you’ll bring up your own children that way and not give it another thought, but if you were not
In any event, it seems to me that when our eyes are opened to see His handiwork, God is in the business of revealing Himself to us, and in the process,
Therefore, it may be an uncomfortable process, but it’s also an exciting one, because I know I’ll come out of it on the other side, better for having been through it. Good Counselors do the same thing and I’ve had some excellent ones in my life, but the very best counselor of all is Christ Himself, for after all, that is one of His names:
Moses is my favorite Old Testament Prophet, because He walked and talked with God. In Exodus, Chapters 32-33, there is a gripping story about God’s wrath against the Israelites on the occasion when they asked Aaron to build a golden calf while Moses was up on Mount Sinai receiving God’s Commandments for them. When Moses came down the mountain, the people were running amok, worshiping the calf, and who knows what else?
About three thousand of them died by the sword that day. In fact, God had told Moses that He would destroy them all and make a nation out of Moses’ heirs. In a bold, some would say dangerously audacious move, Moses in effect told God,
Moses besought the Lord not to send him into the Promised Land without the Presence of God,
What a thrilling statement that God knew Moses by name, and dear friends, He knows us by name as well for
The Spirit revealed to me what countless self-help books could not. Who I am is a child of God, for our Father has called us to be His children, to bear His name unto the world, to rest in His bosom, to receive His unconditional love and compassion and His
Father, you are our Counselor, the Lover of our Souls, the Champion who rides in on a White Horse to save us from ourselves. You give of Yourself freely to us by the Spirit who dwells within us, and for this, there are no words adequate enough to thank You and praise You. You know who we are and where You are taking us. We add our voices to those of all the Saints who surround Your throne, on this side of the veil and the other side,